Grace

My GRACE is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in (your) weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9IMG_5769

I want Your power, LORD …

So I accept my weakness.

I accept Your grace, LORD …

So I’m given another chance.

I feel so weak and confused …

But I know that You are becoming powerful in me.

I don’t like the way weakness feels …

But I yield to Your work.

WHEN I feel weak and confused …

THEN I will speak Truth to my soul

YOUR power is being made perfect in my weakness.

Thank You, LORD.

Help my unbelief.

Release Your Power in me!

Giver of Life

A precious child fighting for his life … Needing a liver to survive.

A child born in need of life-saving surgery was found to need something else. What could be more important than an organ transplant? In this case, the child also needed loving parents and a stable home. Without that he may not live long enough to be placed on the organ transplant list!

I was a busy wife, mom, and nurse just doing my job and caring for my family when I realized Dylan needed me. I had a choice … ignore the need and continue with my busy life, or stop and listen to God.

I thought I was obediently following God. I lovingly and meticulously cared for babies in the neonatal intensive care unit at a local hospital. I had my own two children at home, so life was a daily juggle! My husband and I shared leadership in a ministry to single adults in our church. In fact, my husband was ministering in Haiti when the Lord spoke to me!

God was asking me to go deeper with Him thand to trust Him more completely! One night while I was on duty at the hospital, a physician jokingly said to me, “Why don’t you adopt Dylan so that he can have his transplant?” I laughed at the time, but the words rang in my head.

“Yes, Lord. We’ll attend foster care classes.”

“Us? Not us! We have kids at home!”

“We have jobs, Lord. Busy jobs!”

“And he’s sick … Very sick!”

What followed involved foster care classes and home inspections while I daily held and rocked this sick little gift from God. My husband called from Haiti and I cried as I told him what God had planted in my heart. He immediately felt God’s leading and we fixed our eyes and our hearts on following God’s plan.

Love bears all things …

Foster care. Surgeries. Adoption!

Career change. Surprise pregnancy!

Tube feedings. Constant medications. Forever doctor visits!

More surgeries. Little sleep. New baby. No sleep!

I began to sit with Dylan before and after my shifts. I fell in love. We began foster care classes. Soon foster care was awarded to us. Almost immediately the phone call came saying that a donor liver had been found!

Days and nights my husband and I sat with Dylan. He slowly improved and was able to come to our home. We began the process of adoption. He became a part of our family and God united our hearts to his; our children’s hearts to his. Very soon after Dylan’s adoption, I discovered that I was pregnant! God has such a sense of humor!

My family now has two boys and two girls. It most certainly has not been easy, but God has met every need in miraculous ways! Our youngest daughter has been a catalyst to help Dylan with his educational needs. We now realize that God not only gave us our special needs child, but he gave us our daughter to help motivate him and push him to achieve critical developmental stages!

What a blessing it is to obey when God calls!

God decided in advance to ADOPT us to Himself through Jesus Christ. This is what He wanted to do and it gave Him great pleasure. Ephesians 1:5

Have you been ADOPTED into God’s eternal home?

Are you willing to listen to God and obediently make the changes He is asking you to make to follow Him?

My Refuge! My Strength! My Guard!

IMG_5751My only son found himself fighting in a foreign land as an Airborne, Sniper, and Infantryman. I prayed daily asking our LORD to protect him and his fellow soldiers.

One morning the Holy Spirit prompted me to stop and pray. I obeyed and prayed earnestly for my son. It was not unusual for me to pray for him; however, being prompted by the Spirit was distinctive! My spirit was grieved and I prayed throughout the day and evening.

A year later with my son home and safe, he shared an incident when the hummer he was riding in rolled over an explosive device. The hummer was destroyed, but the men inside survived with only a hurt ankle between them! This happened in the same time frame that I had been prompted to pray.

I know my God is faithful!

For He will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. ~Psalm 91:11-12

I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” ~Psalm 91:2

Is God your REFUGE?   Do you depend on Him for your STRENGTH?  Do you recognize Him as your GUARD? 

Truth Comes in the Storm

I sit before the Father remembering months ago when the skies darkened and the rains fell. During this storm God spoke clearly and deeply to my soul.

I found myself drowning in a storm – a family conflict, hurt feelings, misunderstandings! I could see no blue sky … I could hear no birds singing. I only detected piercing cries – my own voice as the anguish squeezed the breath from my lungs. I brought myself to the Lord as a broken mess and He responded to me.

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He spoke and my heart fluttered to life again. The clouds parted and a sunbeam reached my soul. I remembered what I had learned many years earlier at camp …  the rainstorms wash the earth clean! After the downpour the earth sparkles fresh and clean!

Could it be? Could it be that God brought back the sparkle in my life through that storm that knocked me to my knees? Maybe being on my knees is a good place … a position of healing!!

It’s storming again today … I hear the distant rumble and I grab my coffee and pen, fling open the porch door, and I wait. I desire the washing. I crave the Word from my LORD. I thirst for new Truth!

Wow … Have I come full circle in these short months? From a broken heap of chaos to a hopeful seeker of Truth?

IMG_1838 - Version 2LORD, your Word is Truth! You do restore your people. It’s true that You will never leave us nor forsake us! I believe your WORD that says You love us with an everlasting love. THANK YOU for loving me in the middle of my shambles. THANK YOU for redeeming me and healing relationships!

He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. ~Psalm 23:3

Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you. ~Deuteronomy 31:8

I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.  ~Jeremiah 31:3