Married, beautiful house, dog, and a heart’s desire for a child. That’s where we found ourselves. The doctor’s office became normalcy in our lives. Two or three visits each week … pills, procedures, and no answers left us with broken hearts, uncertainty, and questions.
Would we ever become parents? Why us? Will our marriage be the same if we can’t have a family? Will we be lonely when we are old and gray? Is it something we have done to deserve this punishment?
At times that’s exactly what it felt like … punishment … torture … pure agony! Our friends were pregnant or already had families …. A simple trip to Wal-Mart could be so tough when you saw a complete stranger pushing a baby in their cart!
My husband and I hit our knees daily begging for God’s peace and direction. This “valley” became our best time together. It drew us together as we recklessly abandoned ourselves to His will. Our hearts were soft, and God was ever so present. Even in the most difficult time, there was a peace I can never describe. At my very last visit when the doctor sat me down in her office and looked me in the eye to say, “This is the end of the road” … There was peace!
God used this time to help us find something we only thought we had … Focus. True surrender.
Proverbs 19:21 ~ “Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”
James 1:27 ~ “Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.”
The LORD developed our home into a mission field. Our desire was no longer about what WE wanted; our desire was to serve God and love the children he brought into our home through foster care or adoption. The truth in God’s Word about being adopted into God’s kingdom became personal to us as our hearts desire to adopt grew and grew.
Our first two foster sons returned home after seven months of loving them and trying our best to bring healing and Jesus into their lives. The boys returned home new … They both received Jesus into their hearts before leaving our home.
Only SEVEN days later, we were chosen! Chosen to be parents to the child a seventeen-year-old girl was carrying. God’s timing was perfect!
A short SEVEN months later, we discovered that I was carrying a baby girl! One journal entry read, “Sitting here being poked and kicked by baby girl … and watching my baby boy sleep. Overwhelmed by God’s mercy, unexpected blessings, and the gift of life eternal. God is good.”
I experienced a healthy pregnancy and we soon welcomed our second child. God heard our prayers and he is allowing us to parent these two blessings. We thank Him for hearing our prayers and completing our family.
“And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.” Hebrews 12:1-2
“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” Ephesians 2:10